Finally sort out my feelings
Surprisingly it wasnt that hard
This time round it only took two weeks for me to come to my senses
And finally had the talk with him
Yeah we have no future
I know that too
But thanks for being honest with me
And thanks for that little bit of feelings that you had left for me
Thats the greatest thing you can do for me
I think my feeling for you is gone
My heart dont beat that fast anymore and I dont think of you at all
Ok maybe that is a lie
I do think of you sometimes but its only about the fun times we had
Im glad that I dont burst into a ball of emotions during the one hour talk that we had
That clearly means I dont feel for you anymore
Like we talked about we are better off friends
Maybe less than a lover and more than a friend
I bet you are going forget about me and i will do the same
Today is going to be the last time that im going to miss you and call you
You said you will call but i dont think that will happen
It was great while it last and good luck for your exams and I will do great on mine too
Our ending wasnt perfect but it was good enough
At least we laugh while we say goodbye
태웅아~ I regret meeting you but I was happy.

태웅~ i miss u..

do i think too much?
sometimes i think i do but...
there's a reason i feel uneasy all the time.
i cant seem to trust that easily.
he says he like me,
sometimes i feel it too but when he dont call me even for one day
i always feel that he have just forgotten about me..
is it just my insecurities or its ok to feel this way?

i think i like him a whole lot,
never felt like this since that guy
maybe the first time i like someone this much.
i NEVER am the one to call first.
i dont even call anyone but when it comes to him i even dared to call his home.
Taewoong~~ what did u do to me?
my heart beats so fast when i think of you that it feels like its gonna burst.
i want to stay in korea forever because of you.

you keep telling me how much u like me and even
talked about our future and sometimes i believe that u are really into me
but at times like this when u dont call me,
i feel like im nothing to you.
so what am i to u?

I feel all weird yesterday and kinda become that kinda clingy girl that guys hate
i asked him what am i to him
clingy much!
i thought he would run away and i felt uneasy the whole day
being the clingy person that i am i called him
it would be easier if he had a freaking phone but he doesn't
so i had to call his home which makes it more difficult!
i think his sister answered and i just stoned
when i heard his voice i just feel at ease..
i was so fucking emo
i was trying so hard not to cry when we were talking about our honest feelings
but i just couldn't
now i know how it feels like to like someone
it feels horrible!!
talking to him just make me feel at ease
i love talking to him and im not even someone who have a lot to say
anyways my heart feels like it was going burst just now but after talking to him
i feel so warm and fuzzly and can sleep in peace now~

얼마 전에 좋은 남자를 만났다
나는 모르게 걔를 너무 좋아해졌다
미칠 도록 좋아하는 것 같애
난 시간이 별로 없어서 고민하고 있어
더 이상 그 남자 좋아하면 사랑이 될 것 같애
진짜 안 되겠다
그만 만나고 싶은데 하루만 걔 목소리 안 들으면 마음이 더질것같애
내가 어떻게 해야지?
그 남자 계속 만나고 싶은데 우리 미래 없다
내가 한국 사람이라면 얼마나 좋다
이 느낌 오래만이다
걔한데 나를 좋아하는게 정말 말 못한 만큼 고마워
태웅아~ 너를 만나서 진짜 행복지만 무서워
난 나를 무섭다고
이 느낌 무서워...