people!!!
HOLIDAYS ARE HERE BAYBEH!!!!
but then...
so deceiving....
lotsa projects to be done.
bohooo

yipee.
no sch for today.
however,
lotsa test coming up.
must study study study
but instead of studying
i spent my day outside
with the annoyingly fun Mr Wall.
oh gawd you can be a masseuse.
ur massaging skill power giler.
my shoulder feels so relaxed.
home-ed,
studied a little,
gave up,
sleep.

this is fucking hilarious.!

Monday
Holiday.
Hot.
Boring.
Supposed to go out with darl.
The weather was blearghh
We were broke.
So stayed at home.

Tuesday
E-learning.
No school.
Fucked up online homeworks.
Excel is such a bitch.
Gave up.
Made chocolate chips.
Yummssiness.

Wednesday
IS.
Came at 1.45pm.
Finish at 2.30pm.
WTF?
Hockey-ed at 6.
I dont see the fun of going to hockey anymore.
Oh yeah.
u-know-who.
I dont like you.
Stop telling me what to do before i flare up.
And.your ear studs are UGLY.
It aint cool at all.

Thursday
Hockey yet again.
Why must i be blame for something that isnt my fault.
Stop telling me all these responsiblity shit.
LIKE WTF.
See hockey aint fun anymore.
I think.
Im gonna quit next year.
You see.
I didnt join hockey for fun.
I never did say i was any good.
Yes i SUCK.
I never said that i die die wanna play in competitions.
In fact i dont want to.
And what do i get by being nice and saying yes to being a goalie?
A WHOLE LOAD OF CRAP!!
I must drag along that big ugly bag.
When i refuse to bring it.
They say im irresponsible.
oh banyak cantik!
korang balik senang jer
aku kene bawak itu beg irritating nak mampos.
korang bleh merayap lepas training
aku terpakse balik
OH YEAH
STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO.
cuz if you're so good.
do it yourself cuz i had enough.

Friday
I was late eventhough i was early.
Its not my fault that two drivers and motorist decided to hit each other
And cause a massive jam by blocking two out of three lanes
Thanks eh.
Out of all the days to hit each other
They decided Friday is a good day
To piss me off cuz i have SCQ lesson where the lecturer wont tolerate lateness.
So whatever.
Thank god
I managed to argue with the lecturer
Or else i would be marked absent yet again.
After school out to town with Wall.
Ohh oh!
One of his friend looks like Paul Twohill.
I wanted to say that but im afraid he would be offended
Cuz some people dont wanna be associated with him
Turned out,it was his brother!
Ahah!

~you're nice.nobody ever said i have a nice personality.no one's ever impressed with me.oh and..
I DONT LOOK 21!!
btw.
you are the one who's supposed to buy me ice-cream.

Saturday
Meet darl Wanie.
She's a fan of pasar malam.
So im her pasar malam companion.
Bought cheap clothes.
And finally bought my uber nice VAGARY watch.
Thanks daddy for the early birthday gift.
I dun care if you guys say its ugly.
What matters most is what i like!

Sunday
The weather is playing games
sun,rain,sun,rain.
Whatever.
Just rain heavily at night so i can have a good sleep!
Followed Ibu to someone's wedding
Yummy food.
I feel so bloated.
Oh god.
4 tests next week.
Help!
My brain capacity is limited!

SRC 4-a-side today.
Had to wake up at 5!
Yadayadayadayada.
Match started at 8+
First against RJC.
Then,Millenia Institue
Next was against our own mates,
Scored one.
Zi kamu rocks lar.
At last was the *#^$*&(&%!!!! SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC.
okay fine.
i know you guys have IMPROVE a lot.
so u decided to show it off my bruising me!

EXHIBITION 1: there's like 4 red dots.they flick the ball and hit my hand.









EXHIBITION 2:there's like 2 red dots(its very painful ok!!)









EXHIBITION 3:did u see the blue black??!! gawd that was painful.









spore poly,
you dont have to flick the ball so hard.
did you see how small the goalpost was and did you see me in goalie pads?
did you know that you almost hit my head.
i swear if that happened i would have already create a havoc and punch you in the face.
you leave me no choice but to let the ball go in in order to avoid it hitting my face.
and you still have the cheek to ask me whether im okay.
WHAT DO YOU THINK BITCH?
should i be screaming in pain if it didnt hurt?
oh do i look like a sore loser?
like whatever?
you would react like me if you attacked by the ball for a gazillion times.
FYI,it was really painful.
is sorry so hard to say?
did you have fun showing off your skills?
let just meet again during POL-ITE.


anyways,
the weather was really HOT.
it felt like it was 40 deegres!!
my lip butter melted!
so bad that Jeanette had a heatstroke and was brought to the hospital.
so scary.
seriously,
it was scary.
see how black and roasted i am now:

(the bottom part is freaking black!!)










after the thing was over,
me and zi die die wanna shower
but there wasnt any place to shower.
and so we bathe at esplanade toilets.
the moment the water touch my skin..
it feels so refreshing.
after that headed to Marina Square for lunch.
ate fish zinger.yummsiness
AND AND AND.
my watch strap broke!!!
i was damn sad lah.
i had the watch since i was 16
and it was a birthday gift from my dad.









chilled at starbucks.
soft sofas.
restless and sleepy.
bought slippers.
home-ed.
showered again.
and now my eyes are getting heavier.
im so sleepy...

sch sch sch.
i wish there's no sch.
but then when there's no sch.
i want sch.
okay fine.
cut the crap.
woke at 5!in the morning!
my eyes barely opened.
and so it was super warm last night.
i was hoping for a bus with super uber cold airconditioning
BUT THEN!
i guess SBS loves to dissapoint me
suddenly.
my tummy started to grumble.
oh shit!
stomachache.
those bad kinds
the kinds u wished you were at home at the comfort of ur own toilet
so i had two option.
1.Alight at some stop and find a toilet.(but then i would be late for lessons if i detoured)
2.Just bear with it.(sch was one hour away.oh!the agony!)
SO I DECIDED TO SUFFER FOR ONE HOUR.
gawd i think my face looks constipated.
so out of the bus and rushed to the loo.
and so sch begins.
blahblah
laughlaughlaugh
I VERY FUNNY IS IT??
testtesttest
blahblahblah
at last home-ed at 5
reach doorsteps at 6.30
oohhhhhhhh tired
i wanna sleep but then.....
must go ngaji.
i was falling asleep as i read.
mampos.
and now.
can sleep
but dun wanna sleep.
OOOOHH!!
im going to CHINA ya'll.

oh wells.
this monday doesnt seem so blue.
after class
went to westmall?(like where the heck is that?)
with corrinne and the usual gang.
watched WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS.
it a totally great movie ya'll
super sweet and funny :)
THENTHENTHEN.
So kecohness begins.
The 3 of us didnt want to sit at the end
And so we create havoc and ran around to 'chope' our seats.
We were making a little bit of noise
Its not as if your eardrums can burst from our voice.
Then there were these KANAK2 strawberry CheeNa were like
"CAN YOU KEEP QUIET PLS!!!!"
LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!
THE MOVIE HAVENT STARTED YET BEYOTCH
and as if we were not irritated by that......
ja kinda wanted to drink pepsi that she kept in her bottle
when she open the cap....the drink just splurted out!
then a motherfucker*8&4#@$%$
"stop splashing water at me"
"Gassy drinks are not allowed!"
like what the ***********!!!
firstly,
she was sitting behind us.
how the heck did the drink reach her.
secondly,
use your fuckin brain.
gassy drink are indeed sold at the candy bar at the cinema entrance.
Please think before you talk.
And sooo......,
went back to school for training.
the 2 minahs were running like lizards cuz they wanted to shit.
showered before training although we were already late
greatness there were only 9 of us.
more fun!
the lesser the merrier!!!
I fell down a gazillion times.
and now there's a bruise on my leg cuz the hockey ball hit me a couple of times!.
Ohoh!!
there's this crazy dude who added me on MSN.
if he add you dun accept.
his mail is fubar@live.com.sg
i swear he's a maniac.
and and and
ZOMG!
ooohhhh.hot news.piping hot.
i heard my exboyfriend made his girlfriend pregnant.

Momma,
6 years have soon gone by
I wish that you are still here
Instead of these people who pretend to care
Oh those happy days
Are now just memories
Memories that seems so far away
I still remember that day
It rained so hard like yesterday
You were waiting by the gate
An umbrella right in your hand
Only now when you're gone
I began to understand
Never once i appriciate
All those things you did for me
If i could relive the moment
Even for just a little while
I wanna tell you
I love you
So so so Much
Goodnight mom.
Hope you're in a better place.

im tired.
im sleepy eventhough i woke up at almost 1pm.
my throat hurts.
my eyes are watery.
my stomach hurts when i cough.
the first scene i see when i woke up is my sister crying.
the first sound i heard today was of people fighting.
im anrgy and dissapointed at someone.
im sick but im still being dragged to some religious talk.
people are nagging at me non stop.
im not perfect.
im flawed.
stop telling me what to do.
im all grown up.
force me and i'll just rebel.
dont turn me into something im not.
im not someone who you can just push around.
i may be stupid and quiet
but dont mess around with me.

Friday.
Was listening to the radio on the way to school.
The deejays were talking about Mothers' Day.
They were playing songs that reminds people of their moms.
I dont know why but...
When they were playing Leona Lewis-Better in time
I just started to cry.
I hate Mothers' day!
It always makes me feel so low.
Why cant people be more discreet and be more understanding towards the people who lost their mom?
Why must it be displayed and be hyped upon and make people feel sad and empty.

Im not in the best of mood right now.
So,
I asked my dad $$$ for drum lessons.
AND AND!!!
He just laugh it off.
He told me to ask friends.
HEY!They are busy with their own stuff.
They cant possibly teach me religiously.
Im an ambitious person.
I wanna do a lot of things.
Never once did i got to do all the things that i wanted.
Other parents are so supportive of their children.
Why cant he be like that for once.
I've been asking him for drum lessons since i was 15!!
Is it too much to ask for?
Heck.I never get what i wanted.
I dont mean to sound like a brat but its true.
I dont get money to shop like other kids
I scrimp and save like crazy to fill my wadbrobe with clothes.
When i ask money for clothes,u say i already have plenty.
Have u ever wondered where it all come from.
Other kids get $10+ per day
And what do i get??
I dont even want to mention
Its a small measely sum of money.
Even poor people get more money than me.
You always ask me to understand you...
But have you ever TRIED to understand me?
Being a youth is such a bitch!
Im FAT
Im UGLY
Im DUMB
IM BORING
and on top of that..
IM BROKE.
What a great combo.
Im better off dead than live in this unfair society.
But wait...
You always said life is unfair.
ITS BECAUSE YOU MAKE IT UNFAIR FOR ME!
i should just die a long time ago and save you the trouble of raising me up

LIKE *%#$^*&$#!!!!
Im so freaking fat!
I put on so much weight.
Shit lah.
I only eat a meal a day.
I do exercise.
AAArgghHHHHHHH!!!
How how how???
Crash diet???
Starve myself??

Its been a super duper wooper HOT week.
Ok,when i say that its hot
It means that it is really HOT
Cuz i rarely complain about the heat.
The week just pass by really quickly.
Monday had training.
Tuesday blahness.
Wednesday training again.
Thursday was Labour Day.
Went to Joo Chiat Complex to buy some fabric.
Home-ed and start sewing.
Friday was a bore.
Saturday came and I stayed and home to sleep.
Its just too HOT to go anywhere.
And Sunday is the usual stay at home watch tv kinda day.
Did i mention its super HOT!?
Overall its a hot sweaty sticky week.