so just one week ago you were so in love with me and now that love is gone?
i feel like an idiot here!
in the first place i dont even like you that much!
i feel so used.
so URGHhhhh!
what did i even do wrong?
yeah you are busy and stuff but hey cant you even afford one msg a day?
im not even the type to send msg first but i threw away my pride because i wanted to make it work for once and i dont want to regret being to hard to get.
now that it turned out this way, i dont think my heart can handle anymore heartbreak.
its disappointing, i thought this would last cuz you seemed to like me a whole lot.
YES A LOT!
seriously, if you have no time,lost interest or dont need me,just say it!
i can just throw you away to be honest cuz i dont really feel for you.
so just say the magic word and take me out of this misery!

so after living here for 6 months, i finally got myself a boyfriend.
a KOREAN boyfriend that is.
so do i like him?
i dont know,
maybe all the recent heartbreaks i had just made me said yes.
he's lovely.
"우리 예쁜 마시타,우리 귀여운 마시타"
i loved it when he said that.
진호, maybe i will grow to like you a lot in the future,
just give me some time alright<3

yeap i was right, that girl is his girlfriend.
its fine... i think i was just confused for a while
now when i see him there's still some sparks but its weaker than before
i swear by next week, this weird feeling is going to be gone forever.
and im never gonna see him ever cuz next semester he is gonna be in the afternoon class with that girl.
i still strongly believe that they just met in the bus that day.
why? cause i observed him like a stalker from the start and they look like they dont know each other at first.
whatever that girl look like a bitch.
she was so bitchy to me that day.
whatever, hope u are happy.
thanks for making me happy for that short period of time.
i hope you were sincere then.