all grown up.

it is save to say that you miss me?

2012-01-12T23:15:00.002+08:00

and the unexpected happenned again.
he called again.
everytime when im about to give up waiting..
he just appear again.
i guess its good to to not care as it will make him go into a panic mode i guess
maybe...
i mean, if he call me that means he miss me right?
he doesnt have a freaking phone and he knows my number by heart to be able to call me.
it means that he is still thinking about me right?
and he keeps saying that he wants to go to singapore, maybe study in singapore
what does that means?
he even wants to meet my friends, talk about going to my house...
what does that mean?
i dont want to think to much but...
heck.
im not going to think about it!
he said he can meet me next week.
tried not to sound too excited but i think i sounded a little too eager.
damn.. calm down!!
i dont know..
i dont know...
lets just wait for his call~
anyways after all the stressing after studying like crazy,
its amazing how he makes me feel all nice warm and fuzzly inside.
i dont want to admit this but i actually miss you kim tae woong.

you.

2012-01-05T00:01:00.002+08:00

i was sleeping and.....
태웅 called
just when i thought i dont care
i was so happy to see his name on my phone screen
i thought i was dreaming
but it was true
i think about him now and then
not the kind that makes my heart beats so fast that its going to burst
but just about the good times we had
im glad we are having this relazing comfortable relationship now
instead of that period of time when i was so obsessive and wanted to own him
i regret burdening him and arguing about it all the time
now we are back to the first time when all we do is talk and laugh
a whole lot
this is much better than hearing i like you and saying it back.
i like this better,if only i can see your face...
you said maybe you forgot my face and that made me sad for a moment
cuz i will never forget your face!!
HHMMMPHHHH! {>-<}
Nahhh just kidding
I wont forget your face cuz i have your picture!! :P

2011-12-29T21:20:00.002+08:00

Finally sort out my feelings
Surprisingly it wasnt that hard
This time round it only took two weeks for me to come to my senses
And finally had the talk with him
Yeah we have no future
I know that too
But thanks for being honest with me
And thanks for that little bit of feelings that you had left for me
Thats the greatest thing you can do for me
I think my feeling for you is gone
My heart dont beat that fast anymore and I dont think of you at all
Ok maybe that is a lie
I do think of you sometimes but its only about the fun times we had
Im glad that I dont burst into a ball of emotions during the one hour talk that we had
That clearly means I dont feel for you anymore
Like we talked about we are better off friends
Maybe less than a lover and more than a friend
I bet you are going forget about me and i will do the same
Today is going to be the last time that im going to miss you and call you
You said you will call but i dont think that will happen
It was great while it last and good luck for your exams and I will do great on mine too
Our ending wasnt perfect but it was good enough
At least we laugh while we say goodbye
태웅아~ I regret meeting you but I was happy.

2011-12-23T16:02:00.001+08:00

태웅~ i miss u..

is it me?

2011-12-22T14:53:00.002+08:00

do i think too much?
sometimes i think i do but...
there's a reason i feel uneasy all the time.
i cant seem to trust that easily.
he says he like me,
sometimes i feel it too but when he dont call me even for one day
i always feel that he have just forgotten about me..
is it just my insecurities or its ok to feel this way?

i think i like him a whole lot,
never felt like this since that guy
maybe the first time i like someone this much.
i NEVER am the one to call first.
i dont even call anyone but when it comes to him i even dared to call his home.
Taewoong~~ what did u do to me?
my heart beats so fast when i think of you that it feels like its gonna burst.
i want to stay in korea forever because of you.

you keep telling me how much u like me and even
talked about our future and sometimes i believe that u are really into me
but at times like this when u dont call me,
i feel like im nothing to you.
so what am i to u?

2011-12-15T20:30:00.002+08:00

I feel all weird yesterday and kinda become that kinda clingy girl that guys hate
i asked him what am i to him
clingy much!
i thought he would run away and i felt uneasy the whole day
being the clingy person that i am i called him
it would be easier if he had a freaking phone but he doesn't
so i had to call his home which makes it more difficult!
i think his sister answered and i just stoned
when i heard his voice i just feel at ease..
i was so fucking emo
i was trying so hard not to cry when we were talking about our honest feelings
but i just couldn't
now i know how it feels like to like someone
it feels horrible!!
talking to him just make me feel at ease
i love talking to him and im not even someone who have a lot to say
anyways my heart feels like it was going burst just now but after talking to him
i feel so warm and fuzzly and can sleep in peace now~

2011-12-14T22:17:00.000+08:00

얼마 전에 좋은 남자를 만났다
나는 모르게 걔를 너무 좋아해졌다
미칠 도록 좋아하는 것 같애
난 시간이 별로 없어서 고민하고 있어
더 이상 그 남자 좋아하면 사랑이 될 것 같애
진짜 안 되겠다
그만 만나고 싶은데 하루만 걔 목소리 안 들으면 마음이 더질것같애
내가 어떻게 해야지?
그 남자 계속 만나고 싶은데 우리 미래 없다
내가 한국 사람이라면 얼마나 좋다
이 느낌 오래만이다
걔한데 나를 좋아하는게 정말 말 못한 만큼 고마워
태웅아~ 너를 만나서 진짜 행복지만 무서워
난 나를 무섭다고
이 느낌 무서워...

oh come on masita.

2011-11-27T21:26:00.002+08:00

im angry at myself.
i should forget whats not mine, whats never mine, never meant to be mine.
im angry.
for wasting my time on that person.
im angry.
after all these time,
all these time!
i thought i forgot
but my heart still ache, tears just flows when i see his face.
im such a hopeless idiot.

you look so happy.
i wonder if i ever made you happy?
probably not.

like omg!

2011-11-24T17:59:00.002+08:00

" Occupation: student(wat else!!!!)
More about you: well i'm the average teenage drama queen....serious in skool but wacky at home....i love to act in front of the mirror but getsscared on the stage.... "i live 4 myself.."
Interests: my fav colour is green....my favorite books are those from lemony snicket......i love listening to good charlotte, hilary duff, craig david..... basically i love reading to books that hav suspense..... i also like to listen 2 all types of songs except 4 techno.... i love roller bladding n playing badminton i love designing n hopes 2 be a fashion designer one day....."

like oh my god!
i didnt log in to MSN for ages and as i was browsing through some stuff,
i found the profile that i wrote ages ago!
maybe when i was about 15 or so!
so embarassing OMG!
i cant believe i wrote that!
oh the nightmare!

im still in a state of shock.

2011-09-10T22:22:00.002+08:00

I cant believe that he dumped me!
OMG I should have dumped him first!
Its frustrating, damn frustrating
More than being heartbroken,Im angry super angry!
I have ZERO interest in him at first.
Even when he ask me if i wanted to date him i was just okaayyy
Im not crazy about him at all!
Fuck you!
Why did you even kiss me in the first place making my heart confuse?
The first time i asked if you dont need me you just say it you should said it before i fall deeper!
When u didnt text,I shouldnt text first
Now im the big fat loser here!
DAMN YOU YOO JINHO.
I thought you could make me happy.
Turns out, you are just one of those jerk.
Congratulation you've got me fooled.
And what a better timing to dump me.
Right after my mom death anniversary.
I hate September.
Wake me up when september ends.

enlighten me please.

2011-08-28T22:55:00.002+08:00

so just one week ago you were so in love with me and now that love is gone?
i feel like an idiot here!
in the first place i dont even like you that much!
i feel so used.
so URGHhhhh!
what did i even do wrong?
yeah you are busy and stuff but hey cant you even afford one msg a day?
im not even the type to send msg first but i threw away my pride because i wanted to make it work for once and i dont want to regret being to hard to get.
now that it turned out this way, i dont think my heart can handle anymore heartbreak.
its disappointing, i thought this would last cuz you seemed to like me a whole lot.
YES A LOT!
seriously, if you have no time,lost interest or dont need me,just say it!
i can just throw you away to be honest cuz i dont really feel for you.
so just say the magic word and take me out of this misery!

my boyfriend. 20.08.2011

2011-08-21T20:39:00.002+08:00

so after living here for 6 months, i finally got myself a boyfriend.
a KOREAN boyfriend that is.
so do i like him?
i dont know,
maybe all the recent heartbreaks i had just made me said yes.
he's lovely.
"우리 예쁜 마시타,우리 귀여운 마시타"
i loved it when he said that.
진호, maybe i will grow to like you a lot in the future,
just give me some time alright<3

and it all crumbles down.

2011-08-10T22:21:00.002+08:00

yeap i was right, that girl is his girlfriend.
its fine... i think i was just confused for a while
now when i see him there's still some sparks but its weaker than before
i swear by next week, this weird feeling is going to be gone forever.
and im never gonna see him ever cuz next semester he is gonna be in the afternoon class with that girl.
i still strongly believe that they just met in the bus that day.
why? cause i observed him like a stalker from the start and they look like they dont know each other at first.
whatever that girl look like a bitch.
she was so bitchy to me that day.
whatever, hope u are happy.
thanks for making me happy for that short period of time.
i hope you were sincere then.

QUIZ DAY!

2011-08-04T17:38:00.002+08:00

So today was the much dreaded quiz day!

Have been worrying about this a whole lot.

Thank god its over and ChunMei and I got 2nd and 3rd out of the whole level 2 students!

GREAT!

Didnt even think we would reach this far!

To the extend that we were fighting each other!

HAHAHA.

It was war to answer the questions!

Well today the guy face looked so gloomy...

And i was worried! Me! Worried about someone! Pssh! That rarely happened!

Asked him whats wrong and he just answered with a smile that nothings wrong.

He must think that Im a busybody!

And even gave him some drinks.

GOD IM SO SMITTEN!

I should confess after this semester is over so i can move on!

Or i'll be stuck forever!

On a brighter note..

Going to 동해 tomorrow!

Hoping to take some nice pictures!

Weather please be nice cause i dont want my picture to look gloomy!

i knew you would laugh at me!! ahahah

2011-08-03T17:21:00.000+08:00

After the long break,(okay fine! only 4 days break! but its longgg to me!)

Finally back to school and he didnt come to class for 2 days so that makes it a week that i dont see him!

Yeah absence make the heart fonder..yadayada..

I miss him like crazy like OMG!

So yesterday he came to class like 2 hours late and I just feel so happy to see him.

Suddenly the dark gloomy weather turned bright!

When our eyes meet, my heart goes 두군두군

There must be something really wrong with me!

I dont really fall for someone this easily!!

But the during reading class, our teacher asked him if he had a girlfriend and he said maybe!

Truthfully speaking i heard my heart shattered!

DANG! I guess im not good enough for him. Haizz

바보 처럼 좋아했어...너 진짜 대단해..

I really shouldnt ignored him before!

When he ask me out for lunch previously i should just have said YES!

When he ask me to call him Oppa i should have just done that!

This is what they call, hate can turn to love! (ok love is a bit too much! maybe just like!)

Now my heart is in a turmoil because of him!

While studying for our Korean Quiz, ChunMei asked me who was making me feel this way and..

She said she would never have thought I would like him!

Yeah.. who would have thought..

Thank god!

It means I wont get caught by other people! It would be so embarassing!!

I really want to change my seat in class cause he have caught me staring at him a LOT of times!!

its going to end soon.

2011-07-20T22:13:00.002+08:00

so my 6 months here is almost up and i'll be staying here for another 6 months.
most probably be back next february.
have to start planning what i want to do when im back.
its kinda sad to know that its going to end soon.
but its going to end somehow.
i have a life here and i dont think its going to be easy but while life here is still not that serious i should pack my bag and go.
the longer i stay here, the harder its going to be.
starting tomorrow im going make full use of my time here!
its going to start from bringing my camera everywhere and taking lots of picture!!

im sorry dad.

2011-07-18T21:09:00.002+08:00

just got off the phone with my dad.
sometimes i call him because i miss him and want to talk to him
but it always ends up me asking for money.
the reason i called today was because of my dorm fees and i have contemplating to call him..
i had to get it done somehow and the due date is early next month.
im gonna be so screwed if i dont.
sometimes i feel that coming here was a very bad idea cause im not from a rich family like most of those china kids.
its just that my dad gave me hope first.
he told me he had some money.
i saw that money but somehow a few months before i left the money was gone.
thats when i know im doomed.
i dont know how but truthfully i was dissappointed.
its like something else is most important than his daughter's happiness.
i may sound like a bad daughter but this is how i feel...
sorry dad for trying to live like a rich kid and going overseas to study
i'll make it up to you someday.
I SWEAR.

is this some kind of fate?

2011-07-18T14:48:00.000+08:00

so yeah today was supposed to change seats.

have been sitting next to 그 남자 for 2 weeks straight and really wanted to change seat

cuz its kinda awkward between us and to be honest im kinda angry with him.

he acts like there's nothing between us when obviously there something and he is ignoring me and making me a fool!

so how our seat is arranged is by drawing lots.

when the teacher reached me there was only two choices left and i made my choice and opened up the paper.

i was no.2

so i turned to him and saw him paper no.3!!!

which means he is still beside me!!

seriously what are the odds??!!

there's 15 people in my class and for the 4th week i'll be sitting beside him!!

lazy sunday.

2011-07-17T20:27:00.002+08:00

cause when your heart is broken.
you just wanna laze around and take pretty pictures.
but i look like an idiot instead.
the idiot who fell for the wrong guy.

im just so sensitive these days.

2011-07-16T11:15:00.000+08:00

so yeah.
still no msg from that guy.
im moving on to the next guy.
we are going to watch a baseball game at the end of this month.
its your lost.

i get it,just friends...

2011-07-15T20:40:00.003+08:00

cause he dont even bother to send me a message today,
while i threw away my pride to send him a message yesterday and the reply was lukewarm.

this is frustrating.
he obviously had all the time in the world today.
how i know?
cause he went for the field trip and the trip takes 3hrs to and 3hrs fro.
thats 6 hours of free time altogether!

i dont know why im acting like this.
its like i like him more than he like me.
SHIT!
he's not even anything special.
not that goodlooking.
not tall.
skinny.
not korean!
younger than me!! (the thing i hate the most)

so after flirting to death with me,
you just dump me aside?!
UrghhhH!
and i just chucked a korean guy aside for you!
oh the horror!
this is like part 2.
dejavu :(

what is this....? are we or are we not?

2011-07-14T20:17:00.000+08:00

yeah so the day after the msg exchange,
its back to school.
i thought he wasnt coming to class and was relief for a while but...
at 9.20am he came!
and my heart goes 두근두근.
it was so awkward i think it was unbearable to watch
and to make things worse his seat is next to me!
we didnt speak for an hour or so.
just looking at each other was so awkward!
thank god i understood chinese a little bit cuz this is what he said to his friend
"she didnt even looked at me the whole day!"
i think he was just as confuse as me.
so what is the status of our relationship?
as time passed it got better but still awkward...
haiz...
AND Chunmei dropped a bomb during reading class!
I WAS SO FREAKING EMBARASSED!!
so our teacher ask that guy if he had a girlfriend...
그 남자 : 아마
선생님 : 아마 우리 어학원 있어?
춘매 : 네! 우리 어학원 있어! 우리 반에 있어!
I swear my heart just dropped and i think my mouth dropped too.
Ultimately my name just came out and while we were busily denying everyone else was clapping hands and saying congratulations!
It was so embrassing somehow.
I mean we dont even know the status of our relationship.
Even if we were dating i dont want people to know...
WHY??
BECAUSE HE JUST FREAKING BROKE UP WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND A FEW WEEKS AGO!
Its not even a month.
I know his ex-girlfriend and everyone knows that he just broke up with her!
His girlfriend is still upset over the breakup(how i know?all thanks to her facebook post!)
And i dont want to be the reason they broke up.

are we? are we not?

2011-07-13T23:48:00.001+08:00

its so frustrating when you dont speak the same language.
so are we dating now?
i dont think i can face him tomorrow...
i bet i will be bluushing like crazy.

is this how a heart breaks?

2011-07-12T19:57:00.002+08:00

did something stupid yesterday night.
viewed that guy's picture on facebook.
so he have a girlfriend now.
never thought that he would still have an effect on me but boy was i wrong.
seeing those pictures just shot a bullet through my heart.
i know that exaggerating but i think if i were to be shot by a bullet it would feel like that.
but congrats anyway and you look happy.

and to add salt to the already painful wound,
received exams result today.
i did so badly that im so ashamed of myself.
if only i could dig a hole and bury myself i would.
today was difficult day.
i cant even concentrate in class.
just wanted to cry and let it out...
and to make things worst,
he didnt even come to school today.
i dressed up so nicely for nothing.
i guess i no longer motivate him to come to school no matter how hungover he is.

나쁜 남자!
난 너 좋아해!
몰라? 바보 아나니?!

what is this feeling?

2011-07-11T19:31:00.002+08:00

as i've mention im going to start blogging again after exams so...
mid-terms ended today and it was difficult!
SUPER DUPER.
wells its over anyways, nothing i can do.
after that had lunch with classmate.
chat a LOT!
those guys are super talkative,
진짜 여자 처럼! 아이고!
When karaoke-ing after that with Chun Mei and the 3 boys.
its like we have created a new clique.
after karaoke-ing went to play pool.
i SUCK big time like usual!
after 5pm the 3 of them left and there's only me and that guy.
i dont know what wrong with me but i seem to be attracted to him.
he is so cheesy and stuff but he makes me feel so happy.
like im special.
nobody have said to me that the reason they came to school is because of me.
but it seems like he is not interested in me anymore after i played too hard to get.
dude make up your mind!
if not im just going to move on.
im not playing the waiting game anymore.
dont want to be the fool anymore.

SHIT I think I really really like this guy.
like him enough to ignore korean guys.

Han river at night.

2011-07-09T21:02:00.002+08:00

so had a 'date?' with a korean guy i just befiended.
yeah it was great...
walked around his school, had dinner and went to Han river.
that place is a couple and dogs paradise.
i cant stand the environment to be honest.
but he's a nice guy.
he knew im scared of dogs so he 'protected' me from them.
from time to time i can feel his hands on my back.
avoiding me from the druken ahjusshi.
yeah and we played with fire crackers too.
just the kind of thing i want to do with my boyfriend if i had one.

OMG i need to wake up.

2011-07-06T20:56:00.000+08:00

it seems like my heart is being shaken by that guy.
why am i so weak?
i've only known him for like 3 weeks or so.
omg dude stop flirting with me cause i cant help but flirt back.
its okay i have a date with a korean guy this saturday!
i hope he'll get out of my mind.

already been 4 months...

2011-07-04T20:33:00.002+08:00

i almost forgot that i had a blog when i just blogged like a few months ago!
reading back old post makes me think that its good to keep a blog.
was reading all my post and god... TEENAGE ANGST!
and why is so many post about that guy?
its like my life revolves around him.
maybe when i get even older and read back all my post i can somehow know how i lived my life?

right now living in Seoul... it may seem all glitz but truthfully its hard.
im not alone but im alone...its that kind of feeling if you know what im talking about.
To simply put it...its LONELY~ (starts to sing 2NE1's lonely~~)
frankly speaking the people i miss the most is my family.
never would have thought i would miss them so much but being far away makes us even closer.
And the most difficult thing of course is money 돈!!
my family is not rich and i cant afford to play too much and its difficult.
I want to have fun to but.. wells
those lucky rich china kids...~

yeah and right now im studying level 2 korean and its a bitch!
why is it so difficult?
and with the guy sitting beside me who keeps bothering me non-stop... its so hard to concentrate!
DUDE do you like me or something?
wanna date? yeah sure since im so bored anyways..just wait till the exam is over!
i want to do well but its getting so difficult and i have exams on friday!
GREAT!
im gonna fail and get deported back to singapore by my dad! HAH!
i really wanna stay here till next year at least...

22nd!

2011-06-14T11:18:00.000+08:00

So the day before my birthday,

My BFF celebrated my birthday with me eventhough she was uber busy.

I was really touched that i had tears in my eyes!

I thought it was going to be a lonely birthday this year with friends and family so far away.

So 선아야! 진짜 고마워! 사랑해 친구야!

ps, i love the candles. why dont we have those in Singapore?

another outing.

2011-06-11T11:24:00.001+08:00

Sujin introduce me to one of her friend Chanju.

We went to an old prison.

It was kinda eerie i must say.

But its such a nice place to take pictures!

Ate lunch and they bought me a small cake!

Its a mini early birthday celebration.

Thanks guys!

It will be a great birthday!

Another amusement park.

2011-04-23T11:41:00.000+08:00

Went to another amusement park the day after Everland!

It was kinda last minute.

Sangbeom just sent me a msg in the afternoon saying that the weather was great and he doesnt want to waste the day studying!

So i lazily got out of bed and met him.

Seoul Land is kinda old school but it such a nice place!

I LOVED IT!

However the NICE weather turned EVIL!

It was so fucking cold i think i turned blue!

He was kind enough to take off the extra shirt he was wearing and lent it to me!

Thanks!

I could have died!

but... i would go there again in summer!

definately!

Everland.

2011-04-22T11:30:00.004+08:00

Went to everland.

But it rained the whole freaking day.

Cant even take all the rides!

What a waste.

Picture didnt turn out great too because of the gloomy weather.

Plus it was COLD!!

If only we went another day it would be great :(

i should take note of the train timing!

2011-04-16T12:05:00.000+08:00

Took Randolph and friends shopping and met Sangbeom after that.

Was happily chatting and eating ice-cream without taking note of the time!

Alas, it was midnight when the ice-cream shop have close.

And shit there was no more train.

Thank god Sangbeom took me home or i would just have cried till the next morning because i dont know how to get home!

ps, on a side note..i love BASKIN ROBINS!

벚꽃.

2011-04-12T11:48:00.001+08:00

Went to see the cherry blossom before class at Children's Grand Park.

Since it was a weekday morning there's no one!

Wohoo!

But the cherry blossom have not fully blossom yet!

Nevertheless it was pretty!

first class outing.

2011-04-08T11:56:00.002+08:00

Watched a play called 'Miso'

Its one of our cultural classes so the whole 어학원 students was there.

To be honest, it was boring!

Went to a palace nearby.

After that went to an Uzbekistan? restaurant as suggested by the guy from the other class.

REGRET!

Should have just went to a korean restaurant.

It was so overpriced!

Then had ice-cream. DELISH!!

In the evening met Sunah for dinner.

Exhausted.

memories.

2011-03-24T09:54:00.002+08:00

From time to time I miss that person who used to be my best friend.
I still cant figure out what actually happened but its such a pity.
My whole chunk of teenage days was spent with her.
How we used to change our clothes once we exit the house.
How we used to wear the same clothes went we go out.
How you used to love pink so much and i used to love green so much.
Once in a while I would smile to myself thinking about you.
Its like breaking up with a boyfriend that you love so much.
We didnt even say our last goodbye and you didnt even get to see me wearing the boots you got me as a birthday present.
Now that Im so far away there not even a chance for us to bump into one another on the streets.
Nur Syazwani Rauzan' I miss you..I really do.

it was so difficult.

2011-02-27T12:21:00.001+08:00

i never thought i would cry that much but i did.

no more free entry to USS!

2011-02-26T12:25:00.001+08:00

working at USS have been quite an experience.
in the future when i go to amusement park i'll make sure i behave cuz the guest drive me nuts all the time!
thanks to all hunters for all the wonderful time i had while working with you guys :)
it was bittersweet i must say.

till we meet again.

2011-02-25T12:17:00.001+08:00

had my farewell gathering with secondary school mates.
thanks for the gift.
i really appreciate it.
we will surely meet again.
will miss you guys <3

JTZ.

2011-02-24T12:29:00.000+08:00

JA and ZI.

i'll miss you babes.

before i go..

2011-02-19T12:31:00.000+08:00

before i leave i wanted to be a good sis.

not that stingy hot tempered sis.

i hope you guys had a great time today.

in the future i really want to be a sis that spoils you rotten and a sis you can depend on.

in this world i love you two the most <3

IM NOT RACIST!

2011-01-04T21:44:00.002+08:00

I was seriously upset at work today.
2 Japanese tourist scolded, shouted at me and called me a RACIST and that really saddened me.
If only they knew how much I LOVE Asians especially Koreans and Japanese.
If only they knew how many of my facebook status are about Kamui Kobayashi and Kazuki Nakajima whom I love dearly.
If only they knew how much I supported their athletes during Olympics and the Worldcup.
If only they knew that dont even care a HOOT about Americans, Europe and whatnots.
If only they knew that I dont watch western dramas, nor listen to western songs.
If only they knew that Im going to Korea for my studies and not some Angmoh country.
If only they knew... If only... Then they wouldnt call me a Freaking racist!

2010-12-28T23:57:00.002+08:00

I only see my dad for less than 24 hours a week.
And the only impression he have of me is that im a spoilt brat.
Like seriously...
Its not as if i ask him for money.
Its not as if he even give me money.
He had it easy having me as a daughter.
A daughter who solves her own problem.
A daughter who never create trouble for him.
He just doesnt know how this world works and how lucky he is that im his daughter.

My Last Day of Work

2010-08-08T01:52:00.006+08:00

Im officially jobless today..

No more stepping into this building and feeling sleepy all of a sudden.

No more getting frustrated crossing this impossible to cross road. [i actually shouted at the road once cuz i stood at the pavement for 5 freaking mins just to cross it]

No more chatting in the pantry with Vanaja.

No more being called 'pompan jepon' or 'hi korea' by brother Freddie

No more himbo moments by Daniel.

No more Korean drama to discuss with Auntie Nora.

No more laughing at Wilson cuz he always kena the terrible customer.

No more teaching Aneena simple Malay words.

No more chatting to Amy on any random topics.

No more asking Shu Qing every little things that I dont know.

And lastly of course....

The RTF guys..............who thought Im freaking 24 yrs old!

Shalikin who always complains when he is dispatched.
Firdaus the resident cuttie.

Fahmy who is.....hmm hard to categorised(too bad he wasnt working so no pictures)

And Shaikh who is my ultimate favourite.!

As i stepped out the office today i felt sad that i will never all of them ever again.

Although I didnt really talk with some of them, there is still a bond.

Hopefully we keep in touch someone......

Gonna miss you all.....

PS,Call me if you need more cookies!

stop playing games with my heart

2010-04-15T00:17:00.000+08:00

You said you are always there for me.
There's no one but me.
Always saying you love my smile.
How it caught your eyes at first.
I was skeptical.
You had women all around you.
You come and go as you please.
I should have known.
Shouldnt have open my heart to you.
Now im the stupid one.
Hope you are happy with THE ONE
Im gonna delete you from my life.
Goodbye my stress hammer..

2010-03-26T16:15:00.002+08:00

Finally finished my entrance essay!

Now for my study plan...

What the heck is a study plan????

What do i write....................................

GOD GOD GOD.

I need help.

i think...

2010-03-23T14:16:00.000+08:00

These pass few weeks, i been feeling under the weather.
Especially when i found out I only got 3.0 for attachments.
Its really disappointing.
I mean.. Its not fair...
Just because the company Im attached to did not give me anything to do.. Doesnt mean it have the right to ruin my future.
So those who got a better company gt a better grade.
Are we playing a game of luck here.
Anyways.
Im now in the midst of writing my entrance essay.
Gonna apply to university next month.
Im really nervous and stressed out.
I hope god answer my prayers.
You have no idea how bad I want this...
I just want to get out of this rotten place where no one cares about me.

I Feel SO Free

2010-02-17T14:37:00.004+08:00

Attachment over.

Report DONE.

PPT DONE.

So happy with myself.

2 more days...

and i'll get to enjoy my

Korea trip!!!

Sick of working life!!

2010-01-07T14:44:00.002+08:00

Was given half day today.

The moment I stepped into the office today, i already started counting down the hours.

Its not that I hate the job.. Its okay i guess but...

Im just not the customer service kinda person.

If I lose my temper everyone is so dead man.

Luckily its for attachments... if not..

Well left the office at 1pm sharp!

Tomorrow no work wohoo!!

Back to school for presentation.. LIKE FINALLY!

i miss school!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hello 2010

2010-01-01T14:29:00.002+08:00

it is the time of the year when we all make new years resolution.
i dont think anyone ever follow their resolutions, we just make one just for the fun of it.
So my resolution for this year?
Its simple, nothing fancy.
I just want to get a good grade for my attachment, master the Korean language, apply to Hanyang University which is in Korea, get accepted, and goodbye Singapore.
I just hope evrything goes to plan.
For now im looking forward to my trip to Korea with Ja in February!!
Anyone wanna join us?

goodbye 2009

2010-01-01T14:20:00.002+08:00

2009 have been a great year.
I must say ive changed a lot this year.
Ive been staying at home a lot and rediscovering myself.
After 20 years i just realised i dont have double eyelids!!
I know thats so random!
Well highlights of the year would be:
1) Finally getting that 'A', not just one but 2! I would its not such a big deal but its a big deal to me!
2)Trip to China for 6 weeks! That is probably the best thing ever!
3) FT Island concert!
4) F1!
5) Finally learning Korean! It is such a fun language to learn. Learning new things is always fun.

the first step.

2009-11-11T21:39:00.002+08:00

I enrolled myself in a private korean lesson class today.
Like finally~~
For $300 for 5 lessons may sound pricey but its gonna be worth it since its one-to-one.
So what makes me wanna learn the language?
2 reasons.
Ive always wanted to do something but never come around doing it.
A perfect example would be learning how to play the drums.
FOR YEARS... i wanted to learn but till now the closest thing i got to playing the drums is owning a drumstick which is pathetic.
Bought drumstick but never played.
So now i want to really do what i want eventhough its pricey.

Secondly,
I ~~wanted~~ WANT to pursue my degree in Korea.
Its almost a done deal except for the fact that i havent applied and the university may not accept me.
Ive calculated and the total expenses would be about $60000 for 3 years.
My dad is going crazy right now because of that.
He said he will work things out for me though.
Lets just hope and pray.
Back to the topic of studying Korean,
most of the university actually required a Korean Profiency Cert.
SO I PANICKED!!
I wanted a good language school but the only good one i found is at the Korean School
ANDD the intakes for new student in in JANUARY.
so if i learn in January, i only have until August to learn.
Plus it will be in a class so the speed may not be according to my preferance.
Private lesson would be twice as fast and cater to me.
Starting lesson on SATURDAY!
Cant wait!!!
Annyeong ~~

goodbye f1 2009 season!

2009-11-02T21:16:00.010+08:00

Somehow the f1 family photo is hilarious. Suttil looks like he doesnt want to be anywhere near Trulli!

Watched the last race of the season which was held in Abu Dhabi.

Wasnt looking forward to it as Lewis Hamilton aka Holey Teeth(my new nickname for him) qualified first.

And as usual MY Kazuki Nakajima made a mistake again and was out in Q2 and qualified 14th. However, things began to look great when Lewis retired due to a braking problem.

Oh boy i was the happiest person on earth.

An eyesore just disappeared!

Kobashi looked impressive as he overtook the World Champion Jenson Button!

A toyota overtook Brawn!

That requires skills man!

Jenson must be hating Kobayashi since this is not the first time it happened!

Although i hated him for causing Nakijima's retirement in Brazil, i cant deny he's great.

If Nakijima doesnt get a seat next year, I will be supporting Kobayashi.

Okay now.. Whats with me and Japanese drivers??!

Nakajima will still be my 1st love!!

I really hope he get a seat next year.

He is a good driver but his strategies are always wrong and he had a string a bad luck this season with a lot of crashes.

Pity that boy!

Overall the Yas Marina circuit was boring.

The only exciting part was Kobayashi overtaking Jenson Button and the the Kubica-Buemi battle.

Luckily the breathtaking scenery made up for the flaws of the circuit.

I cant wait for the 2010 season which will only start in March.

Oh well, i will just keep myself busy with news of who is going where!

Manor pls oh pls give a seat to Nakajima!!

He is cheap and experienced!!

My 1st Love, Kazuki Nakajima

2nd love, Kamui Kobayashi

Oh look they are friends! Rivals on track

i feel like a joke. A bad joke.

2009-10-30T22:43:00.003+08:00

i dont know why.
Was it the long wait?
Nahh.. The wait was alright but there was no need for lies.
I thought its just us but at last there was 5.
While them, lovey dovey, what am i?
An audience.
No its not jealously... Im uncomfortable,
What am i suppose to do?
Mingle around and look like a joke?
A bad joke.
Put yourself in my shoe and imagine what it feels like. Even my patience have its limit.
And today just sums it all up.

wow that helps....NOT!!

2009-10-19T22:43:00.003+08:00

i cant express how much i hate attachments.
First they make us call people to troubleshoot their system, that i can tolerate but now they ask us to do surveys...thats it i officially HATE it! I mean.. What can i learn from doing surveys?? And so i sms-ed my Liason Officer Mr Cheung about the situation and asked him how is the attachment graded and guess what he said?? 'its not what you learn but what you contributed and how you apply what you learn in poly to the job.' like hello?!! he even told to alter the survey questions and stuff like that. Idiot. Didnt even helped one bit. Bottom line is..im not cut out for this job. I wanna pursue civil engineering for god sake. Amd there nothing engineering about this crappy job. The part when i started to blow up is when she gave a new list of people to call for surveys. For what i see... Interns = place to dump all your work to while you slack and boss them around like nobody's business.

Sunday Blues.

2009-10-18T20:49:00.004+08:00

Was watching F1 qualifying till 4am this morning and i had to wake up at 7am since i need to go to work.

Sucks working on Sunday!

This week race is at Brazil and its supposed to start at 1am till 2am Singapore time but then...

It was raining cats and dogs that it dragged on till 4am!!

The Williams team was great during Q2 with Nico at P1 and my Kazuki at P2.

Then Liuzzi had to crash bringing out the red flag...

Had to wait for the weather to dry up which is bad news for my Williams Team cuz they as SUPER GREAT in wet conditions.

Oh well at least stupid Hamilton is at P18.

With Nico at P6 and Kazuki at P9, i can wait for the race to start!

Hopefully it rain hard and Kazuki please score some points today!!

Back to what happened at work today..

Poor me had to work today cuz my Team Leader was pressuring me to finish up work that wasnt suppose to be done by me!

She could have asked the people working on weekends to finish it but then i didnt want to look bad since this is an attachment which is graded and i should compromise to get into her good books.

So after just 3 hours of sleep, i dragged myself out of bed and got ready for work.

Reached the empty office, took my spot, switch on the computer and landed my head on the table and sleep!

Thank god there's no supervisor whatsoever today so i could slack all i want.

The department i was in was empty, the lights and aircon was off. Pathethic. Its a bit spooky i must say.

Everybody else in is another room and i bet they dont know that im there.

I finished doing what i was supposed to by 2pm and went to lunch, came back and continue to sleep.

So basically, today was a waste of time. I wish i can write that in my report. I wonder what Winson and me are going to do tmr.

Memoirs.

2009-10-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

Went to my secondary school malay teacher, Cikgu Norliza's Open house today with some of the secondary school mates.

At the last minute they decided to jalan rayer as well and thats when the crazyness started.

I almost choked on my food countless times all thanks to the guy constant nonsensical joke.

It always like that when we meet up, its nice.

Joke around and reminisce about secondary school life.

Too bad not everybody was there... should have an outing with everybody present, that would be EPIC!

work is WTF

2009-10-15T21:42:00.000+08:00

This is probably the first and last time im gonna write about attachments.
I dont want to think about, talk about or write about it.
Its just plain crap.
Its a waste of time and doesnt help me in any way at all.
So what is my job scope??
CUSTOMER SERVICE! like Wtf#**%!%&%#^O#^^
I guess that speaks for itself.
Everyday im just being scolded for nothng.
Its not even my fault.
I feel like my brain is rotting away every single second im at work.

F1 rocks...NOT.

2009-09-29T21:04:00.007+08:00

Singapore Grand Prix sucks.

Its boring, the same thing keeps happening, there's nothing new.

The botched pitstop: Re-enacted by Jaime Alguersuari.

Crashgate: Replayed by Romain Grosjean.

Safety Car: Brought to you by Adrian Sutil

Ruined race goes to Nico Rosberg, Sebastian Vettel, Nick Heidfield.

AND WORST OF ALL, LEWIS HAMILTON WON.

fyi.. I HATE HIM. Im a member of his hateclub:

ihatelewishamilton.com

Unfortunately MY DEAREST KAZUKI NAKJIMA ended JUSTTTT outside the points table

which means he still have a big fat ZERO points. He was chased by Iceman Kimi who have the

KERS system to the finish line while chasing after Kubica- that got me on the edge of my seat

the whole time but too bad... KUBICA got the last points. NVM there's still Suzuka grand prix

which he is familiar with. ALL THE BEST.

rayer.

2009-09-27T21:32:00.001+08:00

F1!!

2009-09-23T21:38:00.002+08:00

So yeah.
I BOUGHT FRI PRACTICE TICKET!
YEAH I KNOW I SAID THAT WATCHING IT ON TV WOULD BE MUCH BETTER CUZ I CAN SEE IT ALMOST IN MY FACE.
THATS WHY I ONLY BOUGHT FRIDAY PRACTICE SESSION.
CAUSE IT DOESNT AFFECT ANYTHING.
I STILL CAN WATCH QUALIFYING AND RACE DAY ON TV.
AFTER MUCH THINKING THAT IS.
OH WELL THERE'S FEW REASON TO IT.
1 : MY ULTIMATE FAVOURITE KAZUKI NAKAJIMA MIGHT NOT GET AN F1 SEAT NEXT YEAR SINCE HE HASNT GOT A POINT YET. IT IS NOT BECAUSE HE'S A BAD DRIVER, ITS CUZ HE SO UNLUCKY. HE ALMOST SCORED POINTS ON A FEW OCCASSION BUT THE PIT STOP WAS BAD, OR THE CAR HAD PROBLEMS OR TYRE PUNCTURE HAPPENED. ITS SO FRUSTRATING. SO THIS COULD BE THE LAST CHANCE TO WATCH HIM RACE( WHICH I HOPE ISNT TRUE!)AND THEREFORE I GOT TICKETS.

2 : ITS A WAY TO TREAT MYSELF FOR PASSING MY EXAMS!! SIMPLE AS THAT. I WORKED HARD FOR IT EVENTHOUGH ITS NOTHING MUCH. SO I DESERVE TO WATCH F1 LIVE.

selamat hari raya.

2009-09-20T21:49:00.000+08:00

results.

2009-09-18T22:22:00.002+08:00

Ohkay results are out and im happy although its not Great.
Ive always been complaining about how ive never gotten A's before
And... at last 2 A's!!
Asa!

i thought i was going to rest my brain

2009-09-14T21:43:00.002+08:00

well well well
first day of attachment...
i have a mix feeling about it.
morning met up with Winson to go to work together
thank god i have a partner, if i were to be alone im doomed.
we were given this super duper wooper thick stack of notes that we have to learn and remember.
this is not what i have visioned it to be.
i thought that i wont be studying for the next 5 months but boy was i wrong.
this is worse than school!
there's even a test!
and the thing i hate most about it is that we have to wear formal clothings which i dont have.
bummer!

.

2009-09-07T16:40:00.002+08:00

ive done a lot of thinking recently that i cant sleep sometimes.
well im gonna be done with poly soon..very soon...
the thing is, i dunno what i am gonna do after that.
i dont wanna work yet.
i just cant see myself working.
yes i wanna continue studying but here in Singapore? my grades arent that good.
ive been researching alot bout studying in Korea.
thats my ultimate wish, studying in Korea.
i dont wanna stay here.
i hate it here.
i dunno what wrong with me...
everything annoys me
everybody seemed annoying to me.
i want to have a new life seriously...
im sick and tired of everything.
somebody please just get me outta here
i had enough.

that cracked me up.

2009-09-04T17:44:00.000+08:00

Someone from class made this.
As soon as i saw it i was laughing my ass off.
My face is super ROUND.
Its cute though..
From what i heard.. its gonna be in our graduation magazine. eeks!

2009-09-01T17:37:00.000+08:00

Monday was day out with the secondary school mates.

Wow what can i say, it been a long time.

As usual, there's a lot of laughter and teasing around.

Met up at hougang interchange at 6pm and met Fauzan at bedok interchange..

Surprisingly he was super early which never happen before.

There was once where i have to wait for him for an hour!

Then off to Simpang Bedok to break-fast and after that we went to Geylang to take a look.

Headed home... What a great day, we should do it more often...

omo omo! the boys are coming back!

2009-08-29T11:57:00.000+08:00

" FT Island Singapore

Fansigning: Saturday, 7 November 2009FT Island Singapore

Fanmeet: Sunday, 8 November 2009
Fans will be glad to know that tickets will be sold for public purchase (instead of limited tickets like previously), in packaged deal format.
I.e. [Fansigning ticket] + [Fanmeet ticket] + [Original Album for signing] = 1 Packaged Deal ^__^ "

just because..

2009-08-28T11:51:00.000+08:00

the art of studying

2009-08-24T11:34:00.000+08:00

when projects gets the best out of us.

2009-08-10T11:48:00.000+08:00

national day

2009-08-09T11:26:00.003+08:00

Awards

2009-07-31T11:33:00.000+08:00

The awards night on friday was well.. a waste of time.
Was there to collect the half colour awards, for winning silver for last year's game.
What i couldnt stand was the team excluding natra and zi of course.
We were totally ostracized!
Fine we dont turn up for training anymore, but still.. i dont deserve that kind of treatment.
They could have at least smiled and ask us to join them for pictures but no... they just gave us the cold shoulder.
urghh~
Whatever, at least i got to enjoy good food.
Since im quitting hockey for good, i dont know what im gonna do with my hockey stick!

random.

2009-07-24T11:25:00.000+08:00

My blog is super boring and its even boring when i dont post anything.
So i decided to post about the class photo that we took ago.
I think the picture look kinda cool.
Although i've only known them for bout 5 months, i think there's cool xcept you know who.

JO2!!

However, i miss the old classmates.
I wonder how they are doing for their attachment.
I heard most of them are suffering.
Now i'll just wait for my turn.
KO1!!!

We've been punked!

2009-07-14T21:15:00.002+08:00

"KAK! Guess who i saw just now?"
"Dunnoo lah... WHO??"
"KAK YATI!!!!!"

So kak yati was my previous maid who went back to Indonesia in April to get married.
And today my sister saw her in the bus!
So my sis asked her what was she doing here in Singapore and she said she working nearby.
WAH what the fuck!
The whole family feel so cheated right now.
That bitch!
Why cant she just say the truth?
As if we wont let her go!
We even got her wedding presents before she left. URGHH~~
What a liar.
She's been lying for so long.
Goodness...
I know Singapore is small but... why must she work around the area where we live in??
Stupid!

it must be the age.

2009-07-13T22:27:00.002+08:00

i was happily getting ready for bed when i realised that i forgot to charge my ipod.
it would be a long boring bus ride without my ipod.
so, when i on my laptop an icon was staring at me
" SERVICE MARKETING 7"
and then it struck me................
SHIT!
I have a presentation tomorrow morning and i havent finish my slides.
luckily i already did like 75% of the slides and left with some editing.
i wonder what would have happened if i totally forgot about it and sleep instead.

dark.

2009-07-02T19:42:00.002+08:00

It sure rained cats and dogs today.
Unfortunately i was wearing the super slippery slippers today.
I really really need to get new ones but the thought of spending my money~~~
Anyways, i had to walk really carefully if i dont want to fall but then i sprained my calf!
Okay wait is that even possible?
whatever it is, my calf is hurting so bad right now that walking is killing me!!

baking is fun.

2009-07-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

Since I started school late today, i decided to head off to NTUC to get stuff for my fruit tart.

So, after school I quickly rush back home and started baking.

The world kitchen was in a mess.!

I got flour and eggs all over me.

I thought that only happens in movies.

After a long long long time, it was finally done.

It looks nice doesnt it?

It taste great too!

So i conclude my second project : PASS!

The first being the cream puffs.

Sadly i only got 2 bites of the tart cause i was planning to eat it when its chilled but then, there was only crumbs left when i opened the fridge.

Dangg~~

FT Island!!!!!!!!

2009-06-27T14:27:00.001+08:00

Ahhh im still spazzing over FT Island.

Jonghoon, Jaejin, Seunghyun, Minhwan <3

Hongki...Not so much

So woke up at 4am!

Actually i didnt really sleep.

Cooked some noodles for sis and i cuz i know we would be hungry later on.

Went out of the house at 5am.

Reached Dragonfly at 6.20am!

Why so early???

Oh well i wanted to be at the front cuz the stage is so near.

Eventhough we were that early, i was the 70th in line.

10 minutes later the queue doubled!!!

Luckily we came early!

The queue.

All wearing yellow which is FT Island's color.

The heat was unberable.

The sun was directly at us!

I wished i bought an umbrella.

My sis planned to study History as she have exams on monday.

But but... of cuz she cant concentrate.

Desperate measure to protect my face from the sun!

FT Island signed CD!!!!!!!!!!

At first i didnt wanna buy anything.

Then i see people walking around with CDs.

Upon closer inspection, i saw that it was signed.

So i asked the people how much was it.

"30 bucks!"

and and i only had $2o with me.

So i told my sis to queue while i ran to Vivocity to withdraw money.

That proved to be a smart move cuz if we queue only after i withdrawed money,

the CDs would be sold out!!

I think i got the 2nd last CD.
Lucky me.

All that running was worth it!

While queueing, Hongki came out to the balcony and everyone started screaming.

Finally at 2pm we were allowed to enter.

People were screaming at the empty stage.

I must say, Singaporean fans are a noisy bunch.

Screaming at every little thing.

Even i was annoyed.

They finally came out at 3.15pm

Which was 15 minutes late.

Introducing FT Island!!

Jonghoon, leader, guitarist, pianist, hottie - My Favourite

Seunghyun, guitatrist, rapper, newest member, so much better than Wonbin.

He's CUTE.

That dimple. *swoons*

Im glad Wonbin left the group and was replaced by Seunghyun who looks like Lee Seungki.

Jaejin, bassist, most fans, cuttie.

He should sing more.

His voice is nice.

Fans go crazy once he started singing.

Hongki, vocalist, urghh attitude problem, dont look happy to be here.

I must admit though, his VOICE omg speechless..

So much better live.

It sound better than the CD.

The recorded songs dont do him justice.

Minhwan, drummer, youngest, muscular arms woahh.

I did not managed to take pictures of minhwan as he was hidden behind the drums, so i post a nicer picture of him from his photoshoots instead.

Its very hard to see him cuz he was wearing black and there wasnt any lights on him.

He appeared at the end for the group bow.

His arms was so much muscular as compared to Honki's flabby arm.

He did a lot of mistakes but it was forgivable.

Hongki made mistakes too.

Jonghoon <33>

Hongki said goodbye at 2.45 and im like THATS IT??

My $100 only for 30minutes??

Then the fans started shouting *encore, encore* which i dun think they understand.

Then we started chanting "F.T.I.S.L.A.N.D!"

Shortly after that they came out and started talking in english which is totally hilarious.

SO CUTE LAH!!

Then they introduced the next song the were going to sing.

Unconciously i started shouting "MISSING YOU!" which is my ultimate favourite song

And everybody started to shout along with me.

Sadly they performed 'FT Island' and 'until you return'.

I think Hongki said he cannot sing Missing you cause his used up his voice on the other songs.

But then we he sang UNTIL YOU CAME BACK i was like WOAH.

It gave me goosebumps.

DAMN GOOD LAHh.

So the last song was the best for me.

Im still dissapointed he didnt sing 'Missing U' and 'YOU and I'

They only perform one song from their newest album, 'Bad woman'.

And i thought the would perform more songs from "JUMP UP" and i memorised the lyrics!!

Too bad.

List of songs sung in
FT Island’s Singapore Showcase, 2009
1. 사랑이야 (It’s Love)

2. Love is

3. 사랑앓이 (Lovesick)

4. 사랑하는 법을 몰라서 (Because I Don’t Know How To Love)

5. TV Radio

6. 사랑을 보았나봐 (I Think I Saw Love)

7. 멋쟁이 vs 예쁜이 (FT vs PRI)

8. 나쁜 여자야 (Bad Woman)

9. Primadonna
Encore:

1. FT ISLAND

2. 너 올 때까지 (Until You Return)

사랑하는 법을 몰라서

The last song they performed-너 올 때까지

Wanie i totally love you.

2009-06-26T20:57:00.003+08:00

Wanie came over this afternoon to specially deliver my birthday present!
And guess what she got me????
THE DOC MARTENS 14 EYELET BOOTS!!!!!!!
Like WOah!!!
I didnt expect anyone to actually get me those boots cuz its so pricey!
Im so gonna LOVE YOU FOR LIFE!!
Actually i'll love you for life even if you dun get me those boots.
ANYWAYS THANKS A LOT BESTIE!!
LOVE LOVE LOVE YA!

Im gonna wear it to tomorrow's FT ISLAND CONCERT!

WEEEeeeeeee~~

ft island

2009-06-26T20:51:00.004+08:00

Pictures from yesterday's ft island arrival.
They totally saw my poster cuz its so in their face!
Its huge and bright!

2009-06-26T14:53:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was at the airport to welcome FT Island!!

In this video you can totally see me being such a fangirl.

Check it out at about 00:17 into the video... the one in bright yellow

Thats totally me!

CREAM PUFFS.

2009-06-24T15:06:00.005+08:00

Woke up at around 11am today, grabbed my wallet and went to the supermarket.

Bought all the necessary ingredients and quickly went back home and started making my creampuffs.The recipe which i printed out yesterday.
Stuck it on the fridge for easy reference.
Weighing all the necessary stuff.
I didnt even bother bathing first.

The pastry all done.

My sis working hard whipping the cream.

All done.

ONE WORD: YUMMY!

THANK GOD FOR AUTOSAVE.

2009-06-21T17:40:00.002+08:00

I WAS HAPPILY DOING MY 15 PAGES REPORT.
I WAS LEFT WITH 2 MORE PAGES.
SUDDENLY MY LAPTOP JUST DIED ON ME.
LIKE WTF!
THEN IT HIT ME, I HAVENT SAVE MY REPORT!!!!!!!!
I SWEAR TO GOD I WAS GONNA JUST SLAM MY LAPTOP AGAINST THE WALL.
I ON MY LAPTOP...
AND THANK GOD THERE WAS AUTOSAVE.
IVE BEEN WORKING ON MY REPORT SINCE DAWN AND ITS DUE TODAY.
I DONT KNOW WHAT I WAS GONNA DO IF THERE WAS NO AUTOSAVE.

The day i turned 20.

2009-06-16T13:15:00.007+08:00

Early in the morning i was awaken by a kick.
Yeah my dad kicked me!
It was so sudden that i dont remember it was my 20th BIRTHDAY!
Until my dad handed me a tiny transparent box.
It was filled with accessories and i was thinking WTH?
I dont even wear those stuff...
Plus he didnt have to get me anything since i already gotten my super advance birthday gift from him.
Then he turned over the box and this is what i see...

MONEY!!!
He gave me $150 which i am not going to spend.
Its going into my KOREA fund.
Thanks dad <33

Of course i need to have all my favourite food on my birthday.
1. Peach milk tea
2. Pomfret fish in sweet&sour sauce
3. Carrots!

In case you were wondering what i was doing the whole day...
Oh well,
Basically i just slacked at home with my sis
Hellooo~~~
Its monday!
There's nothing to do on MONDAY.
Moreover, birthdays are just a birthday.

This year, i had Green Tea cake!
Last year was cheesecake+ blackforest ice cream cake.
Next year i want Chocolate Mint cake please :)
Thanks to all who wished me.
The first one to wish me a happy birthday was Randolph.
He sms-ed me a few mins after midnight and i didnt know it was him as i dont have his number.
Thanks for going through all the trouble to get my phone number and even calling to ask whether i got the msg unlike somebody who forgot all about it.
Imran, luckily you called me just before midnight or i swear i was gonna be super angry with you.

F-T-I-S-L-A-N-D!!! Lets Go!!

2009-06-05T19:49:00.000+08:00

Lovely sis got me FT Island Tickets for my birthday!
Wohooo.!!

omo omo omo!

2009-05-31T16:43:00.007+08:00

OH MY GOD!

FT ISLAND IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!

SOMEBODY PLEASE BUY ME THOSE

TICKETS!

IT WILL BE A PERFECT BIRTHDAY

PRESENT :)

I WANNA BE A KOREAN!

2009-05-30T16:56:00.000+08:00

i wish i was a korean.

i was so bored so and there was no nice program on tv.
KBSworld was having memorial for their ex president
Arirang too.
so i just tuned to MTV just for the sake of it.
all the songs sucks.
hollywood is so overrated.
stupid movies, stupid songs, stupid people.
KOREAN is so aahhhhhh~~
super nice songs
hot guys(i dont care if they're plastics).
korean dramas are the best.
Korean language is oh so beautiful.
i watch at least korean drama everyday and never get sick of it.
To date ive already watched at least 90 dramas as compared to english drama cuz it is so not worth my time.
The point of writing is because......

I WANNA BE A KOREAN!!
putahge saeyo!!

The love of my life <3

2009-05-29T17:07:00.000+08:00

SUPER JUNIOR

If i had to choose 1 of them its definately

LEE HYUK JAE(eunhyuk) OPPA!!!

na chua haeyo

And of course, my 2nd favourite group of people

2PM

Especially my favourite

KIM JUNSU OPPA!!

2009-05-27T16:43:00.002+08:00

Im supposed to be doing my pending assignments now but then...

I decided to watch the last episode of the 172episode long drama.

Right now im only at ep 79.. oh well im curious thats y.

What can i say... FANTABULOUS ENDING!

Now i can resume doing my assignment in peace.

2009-05-26T22:10:00.002+08:00

I officially HATE E-learning.
I rather go to school and take my attendance.
So what made me so vexed?
Its the fact that i put up a post-it listing things to do right in front of my face and totally forgetting about it!
Like fuck.
I was gonna do that assignment that was due before 5pm but then i was painstakingly doing my WISP report which was annoying the hell out of me.
Urghh can wait for e-learning to end.
We actually have more assigments than usual while our lecturers are slacking.

maybe not.

2009-05-26T12:21:00.002+08:00

Okay people...
Im NOT going for the China attachment.
I've thought about it for quite some time.
The reasons for not going:
Someone advised me not to go.
A classmate of mine is now having his attachment in China, so i asked for his opinion and he said, "NO!"
Firstly, the pay sucks - only 1000 yuan( about $250).
Secondly, we have to pay our own electricity bills - late and the power supply will be cut off
Imagine not having a heater during winter! I dont want to go through that again.
Thirdly, the people treat the students badly! Dont need to elaborate on that.
If i cant take it and wanna go home, the entire school will be against me which is what happened to another classmate who went home after 2 weeks. He alsmost failed his internship and with the lecturers mad at him, i wish him luck next semester. I bet the lecturers will give him bad grades.
Lastly, he told me he witness accidents everyday in the place he's at. So scary! Who knows if i'll be the one knocked down next?

Therefore, IM NOT GOING!
I have an even better plan!

If i have my attachment in Singapore, i can earn at least $500 a month.
So for 5 months i'll be earning $2500.
Plus allowance that i have been saving,
Im planning to save it all and put it in my KOREA fund.
After graduation, Im going to Korea for a month.
I've already checked out accomodations.
Not hotels of cuz, too expensive for a month.
I found a few homestays which is within the budget.
I'll probably go during winter cuz i wanna see snow!

ANYONE WANNA GO WITH ME?

Should i?

2009-05-19T23:55:00.002+08:00

Should i go for the overseas attachment.
5 whole months in China.
Daddy already gave me the green light.
But im still unsure.

WELCOME TO MY KINDERGARDEN.

2009-05-17T18:11:00.004+08:00

US: me + sisters went crazy.

The initial plan was just

paint the wall a little bit.

A bit, a bit more, a lot.

It feels like we drew on a

giant drawing paper.

Its stupid doodling.

Now the wall look like a

Korean kindergarden.

Shall post pictures of our

wall when i charge my camera.

4 words: I HATE MAN UTD.

2009-05-17T17:38:00.002+08:00

Watched Man utd vs Arsenal match yesterday.
For once i wanted Arsenal to win!
Cause I Love LIVERPOOL.
But but but.
Arsenal sucks of course.
AND MAN UTD sucks more especially CRISTIANO RONALDO.
he's hot??
more like smugface idiot.
Luckily there's Park Ji Sung around to make the match watchable.
So when he replaced Tevez there was BOOS all around.
I know people love Tevez and want him to stay in MAN UTD but then.
WTF.
racist much.
I bet if some other players replaced him there wont be any BOOS.
DAMN IT LAH.
LIVERPOOL WAS SO CLOSE YET SO FAR.

SUPER SENIOR?

2009-05-16T18:02:00.000+08:00

THIS CRACKS ME UP.
Damn cute lah those ahjushi.
Can form super senior.
Maybe super junior will be like that 10 years from now?
AHAH

SPRING CLEANING.

2009-05-16T15:47:00.000+08:00

WOKE UP SUPER DUPER EARLY.
ON A SATURDAY!!!

First thing, went for a jog.
Wanted to run at the stadium but then
i was too lazy to change out of my pajamas.
So... i put on my running shoes,
Switch on the threadmill and run in my pajamas!

Then the family woke up and wanted to have breakfast.
Had roti prata..
Gawdd i miss it.
The last time i had it was before the China trip.

Home-ed, went into the room and...
"Goodness! Is this a room or a pig's sty?"
Like seriously, the room is so messy.
Book all thrown on the floor.
That is what happen if you have too many books and little space.
Bags everywhere!
Dust... im speechless

So me decided to finally clean it.
Its now super clean.
Like duh cause im the one who cleaned it.
No one can clean better than me!
AHAHAHAH *evil laughter*

Initially, i was supposed to met up with Wanie.
But then she had to work.
Poor you.
And i actually had so many assigments to do.
Luckily she cant make it or else im doomed.

CONGRATS CONGRATS.

2009-05-11T15:03:00.001+08:00

I wanna give a shoutout to WANIE.
Wohoooo!!!
Congratulations on your admission to NUS.
See all your hardwork paid off.

whatsmscuk.

2009-05-05T22:18:00.002+08:00

Here i am blogging when im supposed to write my assignment.
My heavy eyes tells me that its already almost midnight.
TIME CHECK: ONLY 10:19pm!!!!
The assignment is due tomorrow at 5pm.
WTF.
And hell no its not easy.
Year 3 is really making me age faster.
Tutorials, assignments and presentations.
Its no joke.
And im having tuesday blues.
Its a long long day~~~
9am-6pm with only 1 hour of break.
Skipped E-Commerce cause i cant take it anymore.
I think im falling sick soon.
In the morning we had yet another presentation on service marketing.
OH MY GOD.
I hate service marketing.
The lecturer is some looney who wants colourful slides and a whole load of examples.
The next class had a super smelly class.
Okay not class, its more like sweat infested table.
As i was about to rest my head on the table...
WOAH!
The smell was so so so so SMELLY!
Had endure it for like 2 hours.
Im so gonna bring air freshener next time.
Yadaa yadaa yadaaa.
School is so mundane.
I dont think i learnt anything at all and exams is on 8th june.
HOLY SHIT.
Thats like in a few more weeks.
I guess its now time to continue my assignment.
Annyeong Kasaeyo~~

tsk tsk.

2009-05-04T22:36:00.001+08:00

ZOMG LOSER MUCH